Approaching the big 21!

As my 21st birthday approaches, i can’t help but feel somehow lost at this point. Maybe it might be due to the time I’ve spent in the army. that i really don’t have enough time on my hands to be with my loved ones and also to have some time for myself. the hustle and bustle of it all has made me at some points breathless and really needing a few days off to get a break and spend more times with my loved ones.

I’ve always been excited about turning 21 and it hasn’t changed until now. maybe its because i can’t really celebrate it properly with my loved ones and friends. having to choose certain days of the weekends to celebrate it. making it all seem quite rush. But i’m just happy to be able to celebrate it with the ones i really care about and keep close to my heart. I have never wanted a huge party to celebrate it. Never liked the idea because it will only tire me out at the end of the day, when i shouldn’t be doing so on my birthday. so that’s why i ‘ve decided to celebrate it with different groups of friends on different days, thus devoting my time to each of them for that day or part of the that day.

And when i was asked by my mom what i wanted for my 21st birthday, i couldn’t give her a proper answer. why? because i couldn’t think of anything i needed. watches, wallets, and clothes are stuff which i already have. So i guess i could only want a new tv set in my study room to cater for my PS3 needs.

But in all honesty, what i really want for my 21st birthday are as follows:
1. My loved ones (esp. My Dearest ) to have a good year ahead and be healthy and stay strong despite all the challenges they may face in work, ns or etc.

2. Have more time to spend with my loved ones.

3.Have more time for myself to get a rest and regather my thoughts.

4.Get posted to a unit, after i pass out as a specialist, where i can have an easier time doing my job. (maybe tekong or something)

 

I do hope my wishes come true and all four really happens, and i would be most happy if wishes 1. and 2. do come through as they are very important to me

5 more days to 15042011

My life so far? Nothing short of wonderful :)

Well well well. It’s been a super long time since i last posted something in this private space of mine. Definitely, many things have happened. I enlisted in the army, met new friends, POP-ed at the Marina Bay Floating Platform and posted to Specialist Cadet School.

Most importantly, i finally found her yes her It wasn’t something i was expecting when i got into NS but it did. So like i told her, when it happens, it happens Her name is Sim Jing Ying . And i am very very very glad i found her, she’s really made my life that much more colourful and bright and wonderful and amazing. I can use all the positive adjectives in the dictionary and it still isn’t enough to describe how great it is to be with her.

So i shall dedicate this post especially to my dearest Sim JingYing

I know we’ve been together for almost only 2 months. But it feels as though we’ve known each other for much longer than that. Everytime i get to see you, i feel really excited and happy deep inside. Although i don’t really show it all the time, but believe i really am very happy and glad to be with you i guess it’s just my personality. because when i’m with you, my worries just seem to disappear. like as though i can just be myself without any restrictions. the feeling of peace and serenity is always there when we’re together. i really like that.

If possible, i would like to spend everyday talking to you, laughing with you and just plain being with you and not talk much and feel the peaceful ambience. however, cuz of my NS commitments i can’t. that’s why every weekend is precious to the 2 of us. and i wanna make the most of the time we have every week. there’ so many things we haven’t done together yet. so let’s do them together slowly k? the one thing which is always at the top of my mind when i book in, is that i am able to see you during the week and that’s my main motivation when in camp.:)

and i know the road so far hasn’t been all smooth, mainly due to me taking you for granted. but i have been improving to make myself a better man and a better boyfriend. cuz ur happiness is important to me so from now on, let’s do our best and make our relationship a much much better one than a month ago yea?

JYJY!!!

I Love You

Hello and Goodbye

Woah. it’s been like what. 3 months since i last posted something on my word press. Lots of things happened. Met new friends, Being part of History and now i’m getting all ready for the most important phase of my life yet, National Service. Yes i’m enlisting on 13th september 2010, BMTC School 1 @ 8.40am. It’s been a long time coming but here i am. embarking on the path towards manhood. not that i’m not a man already LOL but i do hope it makes me become a better man inside and also outside, more good looking and more fit. HAHAH

Anyway, before i enlist, i must say i added 2 additional highlights to my holidays. 1. Met new friends almost unexpectedly and 2. Being part of world history by being involved in the Inaugural Youth Olympic Games in Singapore.

Let’s talk about the YOG. I really did not expect to be part of it at the start of the year, because i thought i would have enlisted by then but guess what, I’m Not! so i’m really glad to have been involved. it’s a part of history and i get well paid for it. 11 bucks per hour yo. The pay’s good. but the job..well…..not really good. got sick and tired of it as the days went by. The pay was the only thing motivating me to be honest. But still i get to see international hot babes everytime i work, so it made my work that much more enjoyable. LOL eye candies galore! HAHA

Manage to meet new friends too. I went to Alicia’s 21st birthday party and i thought only ryan, eileen and kelly were coming. Who knew. they brought a friend along too. her name’s Jacqueline. Woah yet another Jacqueline. Now i know 3 of them. LOL anyway i must say it’s been my good fortune to have known her. She’s very friendly and chatty from the off. and i really enjoy talking to her from the start. it’s been awhile since i last met someone like that. so yeap. She’s great and in addition, i made 2 new friends of theirs Shealy and Wei Yi. nice to know them too. So it looks like my late enlistment is a blessing in disguise. If given a choice, i wouldn’t swap it for an early enlistment. definitely

with 8 days to go till i enlist. I am definitely excited but worried/nervous at the same time. I guess its natural to have these feelings. either way i’m gonna do my best there! so as i say hello to my wordpress after so long, i have to say goodbye again. it will be a long while till i make a new post again. Till then. Adios!

The Big 21

So i was at my kelly’s 21st birthday party yesterday along with the Acer Clique. I gotta say i enjoyed myself yesterday. Haven’t met up with them for sometime now, so it was a good opportunity to catch up with the rest of them. Apparently there were lots of NS guys yesterday, mostly from my batch of ICT graduates. All the botaks! man i can’t help but feel excited after listening to their stories of PTP. Excited about the whole NS thingy. Though i know my excitement will dwindle after the first few days in Tekong. But Who cares!

And as for kelly’s birthday party itself, kinda pity her as she had to go around entertaining all her friends whom she invited so she couldn’t stick around each clique for too long. I guess that’s one bad thing about holding a party, you can’t dedicate your time solely to one clique of friends. You gotta distribute/spread your time. It got me thinking about how i want to celebrate my 21st birthday next year.

I’ve never been one to be big on the whole inviting all your friends to one big party thingy. I prefer to dedicate my time to each group of my friends for that one day instead of inviting everyone down and having to go around entertaining each group of friends. So yeah. i guess i’ll do just that. I’ve been doing that for all my birthday celebrations so i don’t see why it should change since i’m very comfortable with it. Plus the fact that i find dedicating each day to each group of friends more sincere? that’s just my personal opinion but really, I can’t wait to hit the BIG 21!! 9 months ++ counting down!!

These days i find myself being alot happier than I’ve ever been for in recent weeks. Hopefully gonna meet up with friends this coming week and I Went shopping with my Aunt and Mom last sunday, and i finally got my Birkenstock!! woohoo!! it’s been on my wishlist for sometime now. so i can finally erase it! next up! Loafers!!! it’s the GSS so i gotta take advantage of all the sales around. though i don’t think i’m gonna be buying much since i have lots of clothes already. It’s enough! HAHA! and i’ve managed to watch a few movies which i missed when they came out in the cinemas. Like He’s just NOT that into you, The Lake House and The Bucket List.

My favourite? 2 of them actually. The Lake House and The Bucket List. Loved both! Found both really meaningful and taught me a few lessons about life. Gonna watch a whole lot more in the coming days. No jobs during world cup period for me! so that’s how i spend my time in the day! At night? It’s Football Time!!

Come on Holland! Time to get rid of the tag of Perennial Underachievers!! Spain did it in Austria & Switzerland 2008, hopefully now its your turn in South Africa 2010!!

Leaving it all behind :)

Alright. Now that this entire episode is done and dusted. i guess there is no need to keep on guessing what the other is thinking. I’m just not the one. I’m fine with it. Couldn’t handle it when i was told the answer but really, whats there to be so sad?? i mean if its meant to be, its meant to be.  I’m sure i’ll find that girl soon now i’m just telling myself to get on with life and just be my normal self. A friend once told me. If the girl really likes you, she’ll like every single aspect of you. So you dont have to worry about trying too hard and forcing her to accept you. I guess that’s very right.

So now, i just gotta get that hurt out of the way. It’s painful no doubt because i really thought she was the one. I mean she was kinda special to me. Never felt so much for a girl before. and that’s true. But i shall not linger on it for too long. it’s not good really. To be honest, im like 90% done with this recovery process so yup. i’ll be very fine before too long plus. im still only 20! still very young LOL . So take my time man. No rush

And the world cup couldn’t have come at a better time. It lets me to do the one thing i love the most! Watching Football Matches! AND I FINALLY BOUGHT A PS3!!!! After months and months of saving up and working my socks off, this is my reward!! Woohoo!!! I just love playing FIFA 10 on my PS3. The graphics are. WWOWW!

It’s definitely not been all doom and gloom for me this holidays. Focus on the positives Derrick!!

Trying

I’m trying to let go and it’s going quite well hopefully it doesn’t take too long. I hope its soon. The longer the hurt lingers on, the feeling gets shittier each day. So just let it go. Make this pain temporary and not permanent.

Protected: I guess it’s time to end it.

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